Words of Wisdom

“To do well in life and business, take care of your elders.” My grandmother said. “Cultivation is the key to success. Life is an unpredictable candle flame. Once the life force disappears, it disappears forever. Before that happens, ensure you had communicated to all your loved ones.” My grandfather walked out of the room. My grandmother lowered her voice. “Don’t let your ego get in the way. Don’t let looking good get in the way either. In the end, it will hurt you more to pretend you are okay.” My grandfather walked back into the room and watched television. We talked about how she has difficulties typing a message on a smart phone. I thanked her for the hospitality as I showed her how to book a uber car. “Come back and visit us soon.” she said in all smiles.

Inquiry into existence 

“I have you and I don’t need anyone else.” My friend said to me. 

To this line I say, “What if I am not here tomorrow? There have to be others you are depending upon for support. Dependence is not a weakness, gathering support enables you to empower yourself. I know you can do this alone, you are strong to undertake this hardship. But don’t ride on this journey alone. We are all here for you. Share yourself with us.
No man is an island, we are co-dependent on each other in a loop of giving and receiving. If you keep giving, and giving, it’s great, but allow yourself to receive as well. Once you are able to receive, you can give more and contribute to others.”

To this he nodded. 

The Difference of Good and Great : Inquiry into the success of Lee Child

Lee Child at the Thrillerfest

Selfie with me and Lee Child at Thriller Fest 2016

The difference between good and great individuals is a subtle line of grey. What constitutes greatness? It is a subjective inquiry itself. I recognize that in the world of Thriller Writers, Lee Child is a great author. There is a defining characteristic that makes him outstanding from the rest of the authors I had encountered in the convention – his acceptance to feedback.

When the topic on the panel turned to reading reviews about their books, Lee Child said, “I read my one star reviews on my books to see what people got to say.” This characteristic of him being coach-able and ready to accept one star feedback is the probably the biggest differentiation factor between a good or great author. When I asked him privately about his decision to include a Chinese Female Detective in his book, MAKE ME. He replied, “I write what people want to read. That’s what the market wants.”

On further inquiry on the panel, Lee Child revealed, “I chose the name Jack Reacher as my wife told me that Reacher was a good name for a character in my book as I was asked on many occasions to reach for the top stands of groceries isles, and it stuck.”

I believe Lee Child’s ready acceptance to feedback is his greatest reason for his consistent success. For an author to consistently hit the best seller lists with no up or downs annually, Lee Child has shown himself to be a consistent performer at his productions. His greatness is his ability to produce a consistent product that delivers on it’s promise.

There are many “good” authors who might have one or two bestselling books at the start but upon their next book release, their rankings and reviews went down. Even at the very top level of authors, most authors do not consistently hit the charts with every book like what Lee Child has done.

At the end of this inquiry, I realised that my barrier to my own greatness as a writer has to do with my acceptance of feedback. I should readily accept feedback and read one star reviews to improve on my craft to move from being “good” to being “great”.


Fame came too early an age 

Melchony was the cure

For many years there was 

No poetry 

The rebirth of being invisible

Yet famous 

On this virtual wall 


What is caged

Is meant to be free 


Anxiety burns into the chest in summer
Ultra violet blinding light hits the eyes 

The gloom hits on the subway 

The machinery runs on un-oiled wheels

The dread sets in the morning 

Yet another day in this dysfunctional city


Lifelines are hanging on electric poles 

Urban guns and innocents 

The state of warfare is the empire of greed 

The descent into fear and anarchy 

Why, why, why? 
The agenda is on the cards

Yet do you know we are one and the same? 

New York, why do you make me cry 

For the love of the world

You had became a monstrous being 

That eats the souls of its inhabitants 

Till they are zombified
Lifelines are hanging on electric poles

Save no one, not including yourself.  


Lifelines are hanging on electric poles Of course it’s better to avoid them 

Urban guns and innocents 

The state of warfare is the empire of greed 

The descent into fear and anarchy 

Why, why, why? 
The agenda is on the cards

Yet do you know we are one and the same? 

New York, why do you make me cry 

For the love of the world

You had became a monstrous being 

That eats the souls of its inhabitants 

Till they are zombified
Lifelines are hanging on electric poles

Save no one, not including yourself.  


I am on the verge of the cliff facing the abyss.

There are no safety nets Jumping into the matrix of oblivion 

Death is the beginning of rebirth 

I had found and lost my self 

time again and again 
A life of dreams 

Of risks and forgoing what is acceptable 

What is right, what is wrong

Conditioning of the mind and body 

By constant exercise and redefining limitations 
I am not who I am 

Not a single cocktail touches my tongue 
You know what is the hardest part? 

It’s that people don’t understand

What is it like to live in your head 

And reject the hopes of what you believe 
Of course this is not a suicide note, 

It’s my message to the virtual fake world 

“Get out there and do something!”
I am here

Closer to my impossible dream 

Yet the taste of fruition lingers

In my tongue.

Fantasy & Reality

Fantasy is a projection of the reality we want vs the reality we currently have. To have our fantasy realised all we have to do is start to have conversations with like-minded people to discover “what ifs?” But most of the time, before the fantasy can be materialised either one person runs away from who they really are, to go on this long search of avoiding the reconciliation of who they are vs who they are pretending to be.

I have to declare that all my relationships that occurs online before meeting in real life have failed. There is a drift between what is projected and what is real. The relationships that work, is amongst people whom I met in real life as they know the real me.

In the artistic pursuit of my identity, numerous projections have been placed on me. But they are just fantasies. It is nothing real. They are stories that exists in consciousness. To transcend them to real life, it requires real life conversations. Introductions. Really getting to know someone.

Escaping and running from who we are only brings us back to square one – to finding out who we are.

Growth and Suffocation 


Designer Guo Pei

 Over the years I had materialized concepts that I imagined and applied like building fresh Lego pieces into a grand castle design to conquer reality into what I had envisioned it to be. The scale of which started from a small action, such as writing on a blog, to big scale implementation such as writing a marathon novel. It’s part of my personal development journey that I had attempted to document on this blog to share my observations with the world, whoever may be the thousands of viewers who stumble on this blog monthly.

I believe humans are underutilizing their abilities due to social constructs that limits their advancement. The very organisations we design are not catered to humans who are biologically designed to have multiple talents. In fact I believe that working in a singular fixed job without external interests of hobbies leads to the degradation of the mind in the long term. 

The general discontentment and low life satisfaction rate of people in developed countries is the reflection of how modern society attempts to class and divide people into streams and labels in organisational hierarchies. It starts with school, we are given a grade and the final score of university entry exams determines the outcome of an adoscelent adulthood and lifestyle. 

That predetermination of streaming at a premature age limits and hinders personal growth that could otherwise be materialized to fruitation into a multi potiential human being with the ability to redesign and recreate reality of his own. 

It kills off entrepreneurs who otherwise may have learnt the tools in business school wasn’t for their low scores in maths or science or languages. The inaccuracy of grading ones ability using written assessments is a detriment to the otherwise unfounded development of a person who could have blossomed into a world leader. 

I dropped out of two schools in my lifetime because I felt it wasn’t aligned to my interests and outcome. The best opportunity given to me in my life was the years I spent in Melbourne where I discovered and formulated my identity and broke out of my constrains of what was expected of a typical conservative Asian girl. By 21, I had a business degree in my belt and was highly graded on my business presentations. There wasn’t a question my lecturers posed that I couldn’t answer on the spot.  What runs me is that I have to get it right. Do it right, do it right. It is screaming at the back of my mind. 

Maybe having an almost perfect memory for written text and the ability to condense and link large amounts of factual data is a blessing in disguise. I knew the answers before they were told. Sometimes I wonder if I could read people minds. 

The Landmark Forum Advanced course was a breakthrough in my understanding of the pieces I had been trying to solve for some time. How does one change the world? I finally got my answer – it starts with writing the future now. 

I redesigned my life to be a work of art. I don’t want to live a blind slavish life to pursuing materialistic short term gratification. However I feel that my works are being abused instead of appreciated as I am on the wrong medium. 

I am seriously reconsidering my artistic direction on my YouTube channel to take it to a new unthreaded frontier. This may mean I will change my content to make it only accessible to paid subscribers to achieve the next milestone. There will be no more free content to be released to the public. Changing my medium of communication will enable me to focus on quality and depth. 
My despodence grows from knowing that my journey is solitary and my messages may never be comprehended. But it’s okay, as long I am here I will keep trying to communicate my definition of beauty to alleviate human suffering. 

Writing the future now has never been so empowering. The mastery of self lies in the mastery of language. I am glad to have taken the path of being a writer. Language is the access to recreating the reality we live in for the advancement of mankind.

The reality we live in only exists in the future now that we create. The possibility starts with daily consistent actions. I am awake and not asleep no more. 

I am finally released from my suffering.