My prerogative. My narrative. My words.
Of course no one can take these away from me, my thoughts are my own. I can write whatever I want, and get away with it. It shouldn’t please anyone, nor it is for anybody, except for myself. I write for myself. My own sanity. I write because I am born to do it, like how a baby learns to crawl on their own. It’s a natural instinct.
The moment I have to write for others, is the moment I am killing my own desire to write for my own, innate desire to create, and explore, the themes in life that interests me.
Like how I film my videos, I do them because I like doing them. I don’t want to do certain things unless I feel in the mood to do it. I determine what I want.
The viewers can only watch.
The viewers can only read.
This is what being an artist entrepreneur is about.
I create.
You consume.
Yup, these two roles are very well defined. I had chosen to create, and to consume for the sake to create more. I no longer find pleasure in consuming. I only find pleasure in my own creations, my own worlds… in my own fantasy.
I am becoming one with my vision in the pursuit of love and freedom.
I can feel it close, but sometimes, it burns me like the sun, when I get too close. And I fall.
Falling is part of creation.
Failure is just another reason to try harder.
I know I will reach there —- eventually.
I just have to keep trying, failing, trying…
And soon, you will see my grand design.
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AVERRAL writes under pen name Scarlet Risqué. She stars in Scarlet Queen YouTube with over a million views. She holds a degree in business. The RED HOURGLASS is ranked Top 50 Espionage Thriller on Amazon. She is currently writing the sequels to the Hourglass Series. Grab a free copy of her novel now RED HOURGLASS on Amazon |
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