{"id":3618,"date":"2017-01-11T12:16:21","date_gmt":"2017-01-11T12:16:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/?p=3618"},"modified":"2017-02-22T04:37:51","modified_gmt":"2017-02-22T04:37:51","slug":"the-milky-way-of-creation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2017\/01\/the-milky-way-of-creation\/","title":{"rendered":"The Milky Way of Creation"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/5xItajR-4a8\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I dream of Gackt very often. Maybe it&#8217;s the way my minions dream about Risque in her Scarlet Throne. But I had been idolising Gackt since I was a teenager and watched and consumed all his songs and videos and got them translated and even hung posters of him on my wall.<\/p>\n<p>Ever so often I will get a recurring dream of him. I would be dating him in a cafe. I am in his presence where he engulfs me into his soul and disappears. He is literally everything I ever wanted in a man. He is multi-talented, plays many instruments, sings like a dove and lastly, he speaks to my soul and tugs my heartstrings like a violin as his voice enters me.<\/p>\n<p>I am inspired by him, and his magical performances. Like the crazy fangirl I am, I read his biography and memorised it. I can&#8217;t speak Japanese and I will never end up marrying him or even remotely moving to Tokyo. But he still is in my life like an angel behind me and my creations. When I feel down, I turn to him and his music and it uplifts me. I had never dared write in a fanmail. I kept my obsessive feelings for him in a place where no one will see it, deeply buried in my subconscious, I am floating in the abyss of his voice.<\/p>\n<p>At the back of my mind, he is always with me. In times like now when I feel quite down and upset and lousy about myself, I turn to him. He speaks to me and although he sings in a language I don&#8217;t understand, I can hear his soul. Through this healing process, I am energised to create again.<\/p>\n<p>Gackt has this power over me I don&#8217;t quite comprehend either. Is it obsessive fan girl love? Or is it just the act of disappearing into his soul that makes me feel alive again? I don&#8217;t know. No one else in my life has this effect on me as he does. I could probably sing Mizerable in Japanese although I don&#8217;t understand a word just because I had listened to it thousands of times till I had memorised the lyrics in a language I don&#8217;t understand.<\/p>\n<p>I totally get his misery, his isolation, his alienation. That sometimes being a creator is a solitary, lonely journey in a vast desert. There is no oasis, just mirages that appear and disappears in the desert storm. In this journey as a creator, I know my soul may never be understood or heard and yet I cry and sing a song no one might ever comprehend.<\/p>\n<p>As I write this, my realisation of why I am doing what I do is pouring back to me like a torrential rain. Why did I stop for so long? Why? My existence is based on the feedback of my surroundings. If the calling is for me to create more works of art and beauty &#8211; it should be it.<\/p>\n<p>In the depth of the milky way of creative energies, I am finally at one with creation itself.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div class='et_post_video'><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1080\" height=\"810\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/KLuOf9dtgIE?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I dream of Gackt very often. Maybe it&#8217;s the way my minions dream about Risque in her Scarlet Throne. 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