{"id":2571,"date":"2013-08-29T20:38:04","date_gmt":"2013-08-29T20:38:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/averral.com\/blog\/?p=2571"},"modified":"2013-08-29T20:38:04","modified_gmt":"2013-08-29T20:38:04","slug":"long-time-of-lost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2013\/08\/long-time-of-lost\/","title":{"rendered":"Long Time of Lost"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Its been a long time since I wrote on this virtual wall.
\nOr done any Scarlet Queen videos.
\nOr penned any poetry
\nOr just write for the sake of writing. <\/p>\n

I wish I could find some answers
\nI am a little lost at the moment
\nA confused circle of circus <\/p>\n

Sometimes I wish I can express myself more freely
\nAfter all, its one of the fundamental human liberties to do so.
\nIf I was living in a time, like the age of enlightenment
\nI would aspire to be a philosopher, probably an erotic<\/em> one.
\nNo, I was joking. A better word, would be to be a controversial<\/em> philosopher. <\/p>\n

I am lost because I had found my prince
\nBut I am unsure of what to do in the future
\nI am lost because I have not closed my past <\/p>\n

If there is even closure to begin with
\nMaybe, life doesn’t give any closures
\nIt just keeps moving, there is no end to things
\nthat happen, or happened, or has happened. <\/p>\n

Insomnia nights, nights that the lights don’t go off
\nEven after turning off the lights, they come on again
\nas bright as the headlights of your car in my mind <\/em>
\nThey are the nights that consume, that questions, that asks
\nIf there is a validity of existence, if there is any salvation if there is any<\/p>\n

I am just disappointed.
\nDisappointed with life
\nDisappointed with what I had done
\nDisappointed with some people
\nDisappointed, at not being enough. <\/p>\n

I am disappointed, despondent, and down. <\/p>\n

It will be some time before I pick up where I had left off. <\/p>\n

Once I find that peace, I might move on from here.
\nFor now, I am in the woods.
\nHoping to be found. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Its been a long time since I wrote on this virtual wall. Or done any Scarlet Queen videos. Or penned any poetry Or just write for the sake of writing. I wish I could find some answers I am a little lost at the moment A confused circle of circus Sometimes I wish I can […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\t\n