{"id":2075,"date":"2012-11-27T06:23:30","date_gmt":"2012-11-27T06:23:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/averral.com\/blog\/?p=2075"},"modified":"2012-11-27T06:23:30","modified_gmt":"2012-11-27T06:23:30","slug":"the-scarlet-queen-solo-day-15-journal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2012\/11\/the-scarlet-queen-solo-day-15-journal\/","title":{"rendered":"The Scarlet Queen Solo – Day 15 Journal"},"content":{"rendered":"
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A question I received from a friend…<\/p>\n

“Did you do the The Scarlet Queen Channel on your own?” <\/strong>
\n“Yes. I write the script, rehearse, act and record it from start to finish.”
\n“I don’t believe it. You must have someone helping you.<\/strong>
\n“Heh. No. I do get ideas from everywhere but, I am doing it on my own.”<\/p>\n

Initially, I found it very tough to act as Risque, she drains the shit out of me. When I write her lines, she morphs it into something so twisted, that when I watch her videos, I can’t believe she did that. She is quite a wild thing, with a wild laughter. I don’t really remember much when I am acting as her.<\/p>\n

Now, I find it tougher to act as Cheryl, because she encompasses so much pain, I feel like I am drowning in that oasis she speaks about in her piano song. I composed the song many years back, at one of the lowest points of my life. I used to play the song on the piano to feel better. That is the song Cheryl plays, a song of pain, a song of betrayal, a song of… hope. Acting as Cheryl gives me the most pain, and its getting tougher, as her scenes are going to be trans formative.<\/p>\n

As I don’t want to make it sound like I am sprouting magic, I spent two months developing the concept of the video series, hence the product of which, the daily series of The Scarlet Queen is, is my imagination. I have to enforce that it is a solo project, and my sanity is at sake. I don’t know if I can do it past episode 50 at the rate of deterioration I am facing. I want to cut it short and just battle it out and stop the filler episodes of built up and suspense and get down to direct business. However, I am trying to slow it down, but I want it to go faster. See the contradiction?<\/p>\n

To enlighten my viewers, I have been practicing aerobatics for the past two days, for a scene for Cheryl. I am currently trying to choreograph an aerobatic dance to symbolise her personality and struggles. I hope to release her Swan Dance for episode 20, or earlier.<\/p>\n

At this stage of the production, I am dancing about 4 hours on average for 5 days a week. I feel incredibly fit… my muscles are aching but it feels good. My heart is breaking inside, my soul is being tested, my physical limits are being pushed. I want that all… because I want to be stronger.<\/p>\n

I had dedicated my life to the craft of artistry and there is no turning back.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A question I received from a friend… “Did you do the The Scarlet Queen Channel on your own?” “Yes. I write the script, rehearse, act and record it from start to finish.” “I don’t believe it. You must have someone helping you. “Heh. No. I do get ideas from everywhere but, I am doing it […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\t\n