{"id":2057,"date":"2012-11-25T21:34:28","date_gmt":"2012-11-25T21:34:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/averral.com\/blog\/?p=2057"},"modified":"2012-11-25T21:34:28","modified_gmt":"2012-11-25T21:34:28","slug":"death","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2012\/11\/death\/","title":{"rendered":"Death"},"content":{"rendered":"
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The prospect of death is real
\nto an artist or writer
\nOur moods drift in and out
\nhigh and lows
\nlike tides of the sea <\/p>\n

When we get too low
\nthere is no turning back
\nthe last time I was ….
\nlow… I almost could not wake up
\nthe next morning..
\nIt was fucking scary.
\nThat was three years back. <\/p>\n

I had decided to dedicate my life to artistry
\nHowever, I know its a curse
\nBecause I don’t know how long I will live
\nin my mental cage of imagination
\nI am suffering daily
\nBy experiencing the exact same pain and happiness
\nWhen I write and act as my characters
\ndrawing on every single emotion
\nI had experienced
\nto do my utmost best
\nin every single act. <\/p>\n

Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and not wake up
\nThe people who smile the most, are the ones hurting the most inside
\nThe pain I feel when I wake up in the morning and before I sleep at night
\nIs overwhelming. <\/p>\n

I am losing myself
\nslowly but gradually
\nI will know myself no more
\nI had erased my old identity
\nforging a new one
\nthat I do not understand <\/p>\n

I don’t know myself. anymore. <\/p>\n

Alone, i am on the verge of death
\nWith someone to offer security,
\nI am The Scarlet Queen. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The prospect of death is real to an artist or writer Our moods drift in and out high and lows like tides of the sea When we get too low there is no turning back the last time I was …. low… I almost could not wake up the next morning.. It was fucking scary. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\t\n