{"id":1373,"date":"2012-10-11T08:24:00","date_gmt":"2012-10-11T08:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/averral.com\/blog\/?p=1373"},"modified":"2012-10-18T22:44:03","modified_gmt":"2012-10-18T22:44:03","slug":"writing-and-emotions","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2012\/10\/writing-and-emotions\/","title":{"rendered":"Writing and Emotions"},"content":{"rendered":"
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This writing lecture is extremely interesting with feedback from other famous writers on how they go about their writing process on a daily basis, waking up at 4am, isolating themselves on top of a hill or drinking and smoking away, it all works fine.<\/p>\n

This reminds me a little of myself. I started working on my first draft at the beginning of this month, and I find it extremely hard to sit down and write 1500 words daily. I get distracted, and end up writing poetry, or short stories, I can even write a travel editorial or two, and when I open the first draft document, I am blank in the mind again, unable to write anything for the novel. Maybe sputtering 100 – 200 words before becoming stuck again.<\/p>\n

At this stage, I will be extremely frustrated (because I want to keep to my word count goal). I will throw my books around the room, vent, listen to emo music, cry, dance (that is how I lost weight while writing, dancing away when the emotions hit too hard). Sleep. Wake up, go back to the blank screen. Repeat.<\/p>\n

Writing a novel is probably one of the toughest marathon a serious writer can undertake. I have tried many times, and I always end up hating the product midway, or my plot gets tangled up, or I simply lose focus and it just hangs there. My self doubts and insecurities (the inner critique) tells me I am not good enough, my language is too simple etc, and it is crap. When the inner critique wins, my artistic side is killed.<\/p>\n

Finally, after two years of not writing, I have decided to win my inner critique, and write a novel to the impact of really crazy and artistic. I am on the verge of being obsessive compulsive, with a borderline personality disorder, and bipolar. It is all cool, I still have a grasp of reality thanks to my close friends and family support.<\/p>\n

To keep my sanity, I have stopped forcing myself to produce 1500 words consistently on a daily basis because that method does not work for me. As my writings are highly emotionally driven, I have to write when I have the emotions to drive the story. Hence, my new resolution is to write only when I feel like writing. After accepting my vulnerabilities and inner demons, I have learnt to let go and stop thinking of the outcome (if people will like what I write), and just fcking write \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This writing lecture is extremely interesting with feedback from other famous writers on how they go about their writing process on a daily basis, waking up at 4am, isolating themselves on top of a hill or drinking and smoking away, it all works fine. This reminds me a little of myself. I started working on […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[388],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\t\n