{"id":1340,"date":"2013-01-20T06:56:32","date_gmt":"2013-01-20T06:56:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/averral.com\/blog\/?p=1340"},"modified":"2013-01-21T19:28:14","modified_gmt":"2013-01-21T19:28:14","slug":"severin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.averral.com\/blog\/2013\/01\/severin\/","title":{"rendered":"Severin"},"content":{"rendered":"
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In the chase of the wild dreams
\nYou said, we can’t be together in this life
\nOnly to meet in our next life.<\/em><\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

Sasha was apprehensive about tonight, well, it is the night<\/strong>. She picked up her ear rings from a jewellery box, looking at herself through the reflection of the mirror in her long velvet black dress, planting the metallic spiral rings into her ear holes.<\/p>\n

She gave a grimace the moment the rings are inserted in.
\nIt has been a long time since she wore ear rings.<\/em><\/p>\n

She looks at the pair of heels at the doorway.
\nIt has been a long time since she wore those too.<\/em><\/p>\n

She hoped she would manage fine.
\nShe was looking forward to see Josephine,
\na friend that she has not seen for a long time.<\/p>\n

……<\/p>\n

“Sasha”, Josephine exclaimed! “You are back!” She gave me a hug.<\/p>\n

I looked at her deep set eyes dearly, and touched her cheek, removing the streaks of long black hair on her face. In a swift move, I pulled her chin towards me and planted a kiss on her lips. She returned my affections with equal care, touching my waist and going closer towards me. I bit her lip and breathed in her essence. She gave a little moan and inserted her tongue deeper into my throat, almost gagging me. I moved backwards, and she came full on, bending me backwards while choking me with her deep, thick tongue. I escaped her advances by moving sidewards and started breathing heavily, from the lack of oxygen, almost losing my footing on my high heels. She gave a smirk and folded her arms, <\/em>a silent victory.<\/p>\n

The bystanders cheered in excitement, urging us on to continue our passionate french kissing outside the club.<\/p>\n

“We need to drink. Lets go in.” She pulled my arm like a doll, and went into the club. I looked around us, and realised that almost everyone outside was watching us<\/strong>. I felt embarrassed and pointed my head downwards as I followed her lead.<\/p>\n

“These are my friends, let me introduce you to Judas, Severin and Alexander.”<\/p>\n

“Nice to meet you all, my name is Sasha.” I greeted them obediently.<\/p>\n

<\/em><\/p>\n

<\/em>Severin stood up and greeted me immediately.<\/p>\n

“Hi Sasha, nice to meet you. I’m Severin” He sized me up while grabbing my hand tightly.<\/p>\n

At the moment I shook Severin’s hand, I felt the chemistry running through us, our hearts connected in the instant that our hands joined. This was a new feeling.<\/em> I shook my head, “Grab a hold of yourself. I know it has been years since you got laid. Relax!”<\/em> My alter ego speaks out. I pretended to smile, a cracked smile, and sat down on the leather high back chair. I noticed the interior of the club was a reminiscent of a gothic castle in medieval times, with black chandeliers and a dungeon caged feel. The guests, instead of wearing masks in a masquerade party, are wearing branded clothes and make up. Looking at my new friends with agendas on their faces, shivers went down my spine. I realised, that I am an innocent lamb for the killing.<\/p>\n

———-<\/p>\n

“Sasha… you are good.” Severin turned over the bedside and looked at my pale white body. The room was dark, with a tickle of moonlight filtering through the curtains, landing on his naked flesh, lighting up his skin from the shadows.<\/p>\n

“You are good as well, Severin.” I kissed him once more, this time going on top of his muscular body, and sucking his mouth dry.<\/p>\n

“Oooo… you just make me feel so good.” He turned me around and kissed my fingers.<\/p>\n

“Do you believe, we are two star crossed lovers, only to meet in this life?” I looked up passionately at his eyes.<\/p>\n

“No, I don’t.” He replied. “Maybe in our next life” He looked away and changed into his clothes. “We have agreed it is a one night affair.”<\/p>\n

Maybe… I thought, it is Lust disguised as an Angel. <\/strong><\/p>\n

“Goodbye.” I packed my belongings and walked out of the hotel room.
\n“Sasha..” his voice trailed after me.<\/p>\n

————<\/p>\n

Why does my heart cry?
\n(Roxanne)
\nFeelings I can’t fight
\nYou’re free to leave me, but just don’t deceive me
\nAnd please, believe me when I say I love you<\/em>
\nMoulin Rouge – Roxanne.<\/em><\/p>\n

————-<\/p>\n

Sasha Journal – Day 300<\/strong><\/p>\n

After that night, a curse was planted in my heart.
\nThe curse of a love that will never return.
\nMy days changed from light to darkness
\nThere is nothing to look forward to, except him<\/p>\n

Severin continued his wayward ways of sleeping around and driving drunkenly
\nWhile I, worked myself numb to a certain death, a certain meaningless
\nNo one else held the same magical connection as we did on that night.
\nI tried sleeping randomly, dating randomly, cutting myself randomly.
\nWhatever it takes, to lift the curse from my heart.<\/p>\n

I am killing myself, slowly inside…<\/p>\n

Help. <\/em><\/p>\n

—————–<\/p>\n

“Josephine. I can’t take this anymore.” I hugged her tightly while she pat my back and comforted me like a little child.<\/p>\n

“It is ok, love hurts. It is how love is. Sometimes it just does not come back.”<\/p>\n

“I guess…”<\/p>\n

—————–<\/p>\n

Day 600<\/p>\n

“Sasha… Severin is dead.” Josephine whispered over the phone.<\/p>\n

“He died in a car crash. He had too much drinks, and he drove home.” She breathed in heavily. “His flesh is mangled with the metal.”<\/p>\n

My heart sank. I dropped the phone on the floor.<\/p>\n

I felt a part of my heart die that instant…
\nWe have not met for years… yet… the feeling is constant. <\/em><\/p>\n

——————–<\/p>\n

Say you never, ever leave me
\nIf you do, I will leave… with you.
\n<\/em>
\nI attended his funeral,
\nin a Victorian gothic black dress,
\nalong with the crowd, in a sea of black and grey.<\/p>\n

They lowered his coffin into the pit, along with my heart.
\nI took a tiny bottle of poison from my clutch bag, and drank it while watching his end.<\/p>\n

Maybe.. we can be together in our next life.
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